The Melancholy of Randolph Kelvin Nurse
Pride
I realized who I am
I found out what I am
Black.
I will always be branded as black, always be judged by these idiotic yet somewhat true stereotypes.
I don’t care anymore though.
I’ve reached beyond the visible light spectrum.
I’ve learned all i need to
And achieved all i wished to.
I won’t waste my time with those who See things in black and white.
I’ll worry about the people who see the different shades of color i hold
Judged because I’m born with a darker hue
Judged because i have a different part of view
Judged because I wear my hat sideways
Judged based on the the black stereotypes placed nowadays
It’s sad how you can say such asinine words
Calling me a nigger knowing it hurts
Thrown into abysses by hubristic minds
Judged by the community and left to roam around the confides
Of society
Not just by the whites but by a variety
Of faces
Who misplace their hatred
Moonblind
This girl in my eye
Is fading from my sight
Behind the blinds she hides
Behind my lies she cries
But I as a man never lie
Especially to this girl
Who took my heart
And crushed it
Killing me from the inside
She hides behind her own lies
Unable to find her
I squirm inside
Behind her
Headbanger
I stretch my hands but I cant reach you
I scream your name but you don’t hear me
Your face burns through my eyes
Your voice cuts through my ears.
These thoughts of you are tearing my brain
Dreams of you are haunting my sleep
Slowly turning hostile by your name
Loosely turning quietly insane
The memories of us make me scream
Shout
Cry and
Laugh.
And in these times I wish they were never here
But They will never escape my mind
Because you mean too much to me
But I guess its not the same for you
Because when I walk with your heart in my hand
You don’t seem to skip a beat.
Randolph Kelvin Nurse
FDNY High School